There are days when things all of sudden become alive and you see that life flows around you the way you have not seen in a while. All of sudden the weather changes, gets really cold, it snows... all of sudden the dog obeys the command from last night... or your friend spends her time with you via webcam and it feels really nice, like visiting her. All of sudden baking the sourdough rye bread does not seem such a challenge and you are willing to risk one more disaster with it. And also you realize that although you cannot change things, by accepting them you actually do change how you perceive them, and that's all there is to it. Some days are just like that.
I am keeping my dreams alive, because that's what makes my days colorful. And I guess it is OK they are just dreams for now.